I have an adopted daughter.
She’s into same sex relationship.
Many times, I cry quietly and whisper… Nanay (Mother) why have you left me? Do you think I can do this alone?
Remember the movie called Catch and Release on Netflix when one character in the name of Maureen said
I cannot do this,
I am a bad mother
This is hard, I cannot do it
Maureen, single mom of a toddler seeking financial support from his dead “known” biological father
Nanay died a decade ago, after my Tatay (Father) died five years back.
My daughter is the daughter of my youngest sister. She’s a lovely mestiza young girl born with natural curls and Spanish mestiza features. I had been supporting her studies ever since she entered schooling. I sent her to a catholic school. Her mother is a bi polar. Domestic family and financial turmoils comes with the condition. So until now she’s staying with me and I continue to support her, in every big and small ways I can.
As I water the plants this morning, as breeze sips through our 36 level window. The earth down below honks and beeps in traffic of this day’s routine.
I was reminded.
It’s between my daughter and the Lord.
It’s between me and the Lord.
My part is to become a godly mother and I leave the results to God.
Yes it is easy to throw the towel and give up! There’s a saying if you are a Tita (Aunt), you can borrow kids not your own, enjoy them and return them to their parents if you fall tired or not wanting them anymore. If everybody’s doing it doesn’t mean I have to do it as well. We’re talking of a precious life here, a beautiful young teen with a dream of becoming a medical doctor someday.
I talked to her while we both hold back our tears.
Sin is like telling God… no God I am not a woman I am a man. I will decide who I will be not You God.
Without absolute truth. The world is a dangerous place to get lost into.
Can you imagine your self asking a math teacher…
One plus one
It is not two point something to the nth power
It is absolute.
Or go to the medical oncologist…
Doc do I have cancer?
It’s either a yes or no
I don’t think the doctor will say
Well it depends…
You what do you think?
I would think all patients in their right mind would want the truth.
It is a decaying world “I am god junior” we live in.
It hit me to the core…
If I will not spend quality time with my daughter, not disciple her to become who God wants her to be, not teach her of the fear of the Lord – not fear from punishment but fear out of love, if I will not guide her to the light?