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This is a story of a woman with bi polar condition, who have tendencies for severe depression due to hormonal imbalances. About her highs and lows along with her love and passion for her daughter, family, boyfriend, travels and for the church of Christ. Here you can relate, relax and recover to realize you are never alone. https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #single #solotravel #islandgirl #beachbum #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #ccfmain #ccf #palawan #boracay #beachplease #philippines #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love

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Where is your mommy? the doctor asked my daughter. She went to the rest room my daughter replied. Tita (Aunt) I didn't corrected her anymore as she gave away that sweet smile to me, then we both went inside her doctor's clinic. I messaged Kevin just I have always tell him of my whereabouts, no response. Is this the last straw? I asked myself once more. If he is less caring with me, why would he care for my daughter? But who am I to judge Kevin, do I give up again, move away only to come back again to him, then scheme my all way out just to make him stay? My choice is just do whatever I can do within my control and capability, at least I have done everything I can and could, if Kevin is here it would be much better but if not... I will put my hands to my chest again and whisper those words again - Jesus You are enough... I am content. https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #single #solotravel #islandgirl #beachbum #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #ccfmain #ccf #palawan #boracay #beachplease #philippines #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love

Though my thoughts still lingers about Kevin, somehow I am happy, I want to spend my life sharing and being part of his dreams. That for the longest time, someone have asked me to be part of his aspirations in the future. I want to support Kevin, I want to be there if he needs someone, someone who will partner with him to reach his goals. But all of these may remain a dream, a heart's desire. I do not know if he is teaching me to be independent, to be strong, formidable in a sense that I am not emotional and mentally dependent on him. That I need to be emotionally intelligent and independent even if he is not always around. That I need to keep an open mind and understand that he is a young military officer, busy, yes busy with the matters of discipline, protection and security. That I need to learn to take care of my self and my daughter, that I may need to resolve problems on my own without waiting for him, for his opinion, for his decision. I do not know to be honest, I have no idea. But aside from focusing my mind to what lies ahead, to focus on what ever is true, noble, to what is good. I have learned a mantra, if that's what you call it. Every time I miss Kevin, long for his kiss, his touch... or resent over all the small things that makes him less caring. Or even all the frustrations and imperfections of what I have in the office. I have learned to put my hands on my chest, trying to get a grasp of my heart and say, Jesus you are enough, I am content with what you have given me right now. Even if I don't hear from Kevin, as I hold my heart, I am content that You all love us and have our best interest at heart. Even if I don't get promoted, I am content, that I have done the best I can with the little that I have for His glory. Even if I have not carried a child for nine months in my own womb, I am content, I am thankful I am given the opportunity to experience how it is to be a mother to a beautiful daughter. I am thankful I have a job to support her to school. I am thankful I have a job that someday if it's God's will I can support the dreams of Kevin, that his dream will become mine, our dream, in His time... if there will be a time.

Aayusin ko muna ang sarili ko. Baka pag dating ng panahon handa na ako. Kung di man kami mag kita ulit, at least naiayos ko ang sarili ko. I will fix my self first. Once the right time has come, I am ready by then. But even if the right time and the right one doesn't come... at least I have some how fixed my self. I guess that's part of growing up, of maturity, letting go of people not because you no longer need them but because there are women whom I thought I can trust but I can no longer be with them if I pursue to align my self to what God has intended me to be. God said do not owe anyone except to love one another. One thing I learned from my life long recovery, if there are people or situations that pulls us down, it is important to train not just our mind but our hearts to what lies ahead. https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #single #solotravel #islandgirl #beachbum #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #ccfmain #ccf #palawan #boracay #beachplease #philippines #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love

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Sunsets remind us that endings can be beautiful too…

“Jesus answered, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.””

‭‭John‬ ‭4:13-14‬ ‭NIV‬‬

https://www.bible.com/111/jhn.4.13-14.niv

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August 18, 2019August 25, 2019Leave a commentAddiction, Adopted, Beach, Bible, Christian, Daughter, Food, Healing, Jesus, Lifestyle, Mental Health, Midlife, Mother, Motherhood, Ocean, Recovery, Relationship, Restoraton, Selfhelp, Shopping, Single Parent, Solo travel, Tour, Travel, Women

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